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Canine Caregiving for Dementia Guide

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Given how much I talk about Ralph and his dogs, I was glad to happen across this informational site about canine caregivers at Rover.com. Much of the article covers familiar territory about dementia and pets. But the list of where to find canine-caregivers and the information about what a canine-caregiver can offer may prove valuable.

I would love to get our puppy trained as a caregiver, and she is showing signs that she has the patience and intelligence to be a wonderful companion. But if she’s not up to the task of caregiving, I will definitely look into one of these resources down the road.

 

 

 

 

Reminders of Alzheimer’s Reality

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This must be my week for videos. A few days ago the leader of my local support group sent this three-minute video About Alzheimer’s, from the Alzheimer’s Site blog,  tracing the changes in a person’s brain during the course of Alzheimer’s.

The film follows the areas of brain cells that die off as plaque and tangles increase, not information I didn’t know but stated/shown with a matter of fact approach I find refreshing. While I have to say that Ralph’s case does not follow the pattern in the film exactly–his memory for language has not been the first area compromised as the film suggests—the visualization and concise explanation are useful. I can imagine returning to watch the video from time to time to keep me grounded in the scientific reality I sometimes (perhaps willfully) forget.

Meanwhile at the group meeting yesterday, I was reminded just how different everyone’s situation with dementia is, and how lucky I am, so far. I attend rarely because the meeting conflicts with my Thursday morning Pilates class—and frankly I depend on that 45 minutes of intense concentration on breathing and stretching and keeping my shoulders out of my ears—but class was cancelled at the last minute and I was already walking out the door so why not.

It was a good meeting. Honest give-and-take, practical information. In the other group, all married couples, most of the spouses are still borderline Mild Cognitive Impairment like Ralph, but in this group the caregivers seem to be dealing with parents and spouses who are at later stages. One woman, “Jane,” mentioned that her husband has recently had to be moved into a care facility

When the meeting ended, she and I began to chat. It turns out her husband is 67, Ralph’s age. Okay, I thought, he must have started having symptoms earlier. Then she said he had been diagnosed exactly two years ago. Around when Ralph got his testing results.

I teared up for the first time in two years. How lucky Ralph and I are compared to others struggling with Alzheimer’s. And how cocky I have been in my fool’s paradise. Thanks to Namenda and Donepezil (plus a generic version of  Lexapro for anxiety), Ralph is holding more or less steady, but suddenly the reality of these videos and the stark contrast between Ralph and Jane’s rapidly deteriorating husband brought me up short: This is real life and Alzheimer’s isn’t going away.

So this when morning Ralph turned to me and said, “Coffee in bed and NPR, what paradise,”  I agreed. I’ll live in our fool’s paradise as long as we can.

“In The Zone”

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Ralph took his first art class in twenty years this afternoon.

He agreed to go only because our physician’s assistant Stephanie gave him a “written prescription” to take art lessons during our last visit to the Memory Center at Emory.

Ralph has always been a natural draftsman, and in his thirties he took courses from a couple of relatively renowned artist/teachers who gave him real encouragement. Then life got in the way and he didn’t stick to the art. He always said he’d take up the painting again once he retired. But that was before he was diagnosed with (not so) Mild Cognitive Impairment and he has not touched a paintbrush since.

So when he told Stephanie that he had his paints all set up in his office in the barn and was going to paint soon once he had things organized, I probably rolled my eyes. He does go to his office to “straighten and organize” most days, but really he sits and smokes and talks to the dog. I am glad he has somewhere to go and be comfortable. I certainly don’t care that the office will never be organized, but I do fear and sense the mental atrophy setting in.

Like everyone involved with dementia and cognitive issues, I am aware of the benefits of art therapy. [For those interested there is a documentary, “I Remember Better When I Paint” worth checking out as well as numerous articles and essays to be read on-line.] But Stephanie and I knew better than to push that angle with Ralph, who shies away from that word “therapy”.

Instead Stephanie blamed human nature, explaining in the nicest way possible that if Ralph didn’t take an actual class he would never start to paint on his own. She told him that he needed the class to jumpstart and structure his time. (She also prescribed a weekly night out for dinner or a movie, but following that direction has proven harder for reasons I’ll explore another time.) What he would hear as nagging from my mouth became sound advice  when it came to Ralph from an authority figure who also happens to be attractive and charming.

Fortunately, as Stephanie agreed, Ralph doesn’t need to be in a special class for the cognitively impaired. He just needs a class period: A time and place on his schedule; plus an environment with other students good enough that he takes the class seriously but not so good that they intimidate him. Not an easy situation to find in a small town, but two friends separately recommended the same art teacher who has been working with a group of adult students for several years. We talked. I assured her that Ralph was not a beginner, but I also felt obligated to acknowledge Ralph’s M.C.I. just in case something came up. I assured her that no one in the class would be able to tell he had a memory problem. I could hear her hesitation, but she agreed to let him in.

Since I told him that I’d signed him up he has asked with anxious frequency what day the class was, where it was, how long it was, what he had to take to the class, who would be at the class and how good were they at painting.

He has not been asking with enthusiasm. His has been a litany of fears. On the drive to the class this afternoon—“Where is it again,” a moment of silence, “Where is it again?”—Ralph was such a bundle of nerves that I almost gave in and said he didn’t have to go. The gray, drizzly cold didn’t help; bad weather is always an excuse for Ralph these days.

But we made it to the parking lot and he did get out of the car with his supplies.

I sat with my motor running as he walked in, pretending to take a call on the cell phone. By then I was a bundle of nerves myself, the same nerves I remember suffering when each of my kids faced the first day of school. I watched through the window as he trooped into the classroom and walked up to the teacher to introduce himself.

“So how was it?” I asked when he came out two hours later.

I could tell he was in a good mood, but I was not expecting what a good mood.

“Once I got started I was in the zone,” he said and showed me the painting he’s begun. He can’t wait to go back…

How happy-making to offer a success story for a change.

Diagnosis: Mild Cognitive Impairment Limbo

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In my last entry Ralph realized his memory problem was serious enough to require a doctor’s visit. His doctor Andy recommended we make an appointment with a neurologist specializing in memory issues but warned it might take months before we saw anyone. Meanwhile he urged Ralph to get his cognitive skills tested by a neuropsychologist soon as possible.

The neuropsychologist was not exactly warm and snuggly as he asked Ralph preliminary questions. Ralph was defensive. Well, so was I sitting silently by his side. The tests themselves took three hours;  I waited in the lobby with a book. Driving home, Ralph said the tests were silly. He thought he aced them.

There was nothing silly about the second meeting, during which the psychologist gave us the test results. He did not mince his words in person or in his written report. Although Ralph’s problem solving skills and IQ were still high (though not as high as they used to be), his memory was down in the single digit percentages: MILD COGNITIVE IMPAIRMENT was definite and EARLY ALZHEIMER’S likely.

Ralph was angry, unwilling to accept the results. I didn’t tell him that I secretly felt relief because someone was taking my reality seriously. Or that I was petrified because someone was taking my reality so seriously, that it had a name.

Three months later we had our first appointment with our neurologist at the Memory Clinic.

More tests, same conclusion. But partly because Doc L. was such an easy-going, approachable and likable guy , we came away less worried. Mild Cognitive Impairment didn’t sound so bad coming from him.

A month or so later Doc L. did the spinal tap, a procedure that is relatively new in diagnosing Alzheimer’s but has proved extremely accurate.

A few days after that, I was caught in rush hour traffic and almost didn’t answer my beeping cell phone.But as soon as Doc L. said his name, I pulled over and parked…shocked he was calling me personally.

Ralph’s spinal tap showed the plaque build-up consistent with Alzheimer’s.

“But he doesn’t have Alzheimer’s Disease now.” Doc quickly reminded me. “He is still diagnosed with the condition MCI.” He has the condition, not the disease.

Not yet. Mild Cognitive Impairment– MCI –may not be Alzheimer’s Disease, but the plaque build up confirms that Ralph is not one of those lucky people diagnosed with MCI  who don’t have brain changes consistent with Alzheimer’s and might get better(go to Watching the Lights Go Out for a ray of ambiguous optimism). On the other hand, even for those like Ralph with telling changes, the boundary between MCI and Alzheimer’s is blurry at best, and research shows the timeline for development is unpredictable. It could take two years or twenty. Meanwhile, we have rewritten our wills, closed Ralph’s business and put our financial house in order.

“MCI,” I say when Ralph asks me to remind him yet again about his diagnosis. MCI I tell our kids and closest friends. MCI I tell myself.

No need to speak the word “Alzheimer’s aloud these days. Not yet, I tell myself, not yet.

Ralph Decides: “Something Is Wrong With My Memory”

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So… Ralph’s memory continued getting worse. He repeated conversations over and over. He forgot what day it was. He forgot business decisions. Then an acquaintance invited Ralph fishing in southern Louisiana. Ralph loves fishing and this was a fisherman’s dream trip: catching red fish all day, telling fish stories over great food and drink all night. Ralph was excited if a little nervous (ok, more than a little which I refused to take seriously), especially on the way to airport, but when he called from Louisiana the first night, he said the fishing was terrific and I could hear laughter in the background. I thought, great, he’s made some new friends. As soon as Ralph got home, he admitted the trip was torture. He could not keep track of names and faces. Worse he had trouble remembering which room was his. Smiling ruefully, he described finding excuses to leave the carousing so he could prowl the halls, poking his head into bedroom doors until he recognized his duffel bag and went to bed. Then he added the shocker: “I am going to make an appointment to see the doctor.” It was Ralph’s decision to see his doctor. Neither of us had considered the possibility that I should accompany Ralph to the appointment. Instead I printed out information I’d Googled about Lyme disease  as a cause for memory loss. Still in denial, I told myself Ralph’s doctor would prescribe antibiotics to clear up the problem. “Andy seems to think it could be serious,” Ralph reported almost sheepishly. “He’s going to set up a test.” Andy called us the next night (never a good sign when a doctor calls you at home at night) and suggested we use separate extensions so I could record/remember what he said. He gave us the name of a highly respected neurologist specializing in memory issues but warned it would take months to get an appointment. In the meantime we arranged to meet with a neuropsychologist who could give Ralph a battery of tests for a preliminary diagnosis.

And just like that we fell down the rabbit hole.